The night before last I was working an evening shift at a nursing home. I heard warnings during the day on the weather network that we were to have a ton of rain, with a possible flash freeze, eventually turning into snow accumulating fifteen to twenty centimeters. Being in Canada, this can go either way. I felt weary about making the commute even though at the moment it was spring like weather, for me it almost felt like the calm before the storm. I saw the sign, but I went ahead and took the chance.
It wasn’t long after I arrived that the flash freeze began, and later turned to snow as predicted. I felt fearful for my drive home, so I said a little prayer. On my way out my friend/co-worker ran up to me and asked for my keys, as her and her husband were going to help me get the ice off of my car. It was so thick that I could not even open the doors. Time passed and finally I was ready to start on the dreaded drive home. I said to myself, okay I’ll just take my time and all will be fine, there’s probably not many other cars on the road heading in my direction. My house is thirty minutes away from the nursing home. I had to take the 402 (as I always do anyways) since there was a huge accident on the 401 involving two oil tankers.
As I drove along, the snow was beating against my windshield in all directions from the wind, along with a mix of freezing rain, I was hardly able to see the road or my surroundings, it was dark and the roads were whitened out. I had taken this road many times before so I just kept on going how I knew to go. I started to slide a little and immediately decreased my speed even more, and then started to pray. “God I am feeling so scared right now, please let me know in someway that you are with me. Please get me home safe. I can do all things through Christ. Amen.”
The moment I uttered the words, I saw flashing lights creep up behind me so quickly. I gasped in annoyance because whoever was behind me had their brights on. Peeking in my rear view, (from what I could see) I noticed it was a bigger vehicle. I thought, Great! That’s all I need! The transport trucks normally take the 401, but because of the accident they were re-routed to the number 2. So naturally I thought it was a transport. I said God, please get this idiot out of my rear view, I seriously am blinded by His lights.
Just as I uttered the words, what looked to be an ambulance signaled and passed me. I thought, okay cool at least if I get into an accident they aren’t far off. Trying to think positive. I followed behind the ambulance, and noticed it turn into an inn. I passed by the inn and went on for a little bit, and then the same lights appeared behind me once again. I thought, wow, what is this idiot up to! God help me!
The ambulance proceeded to pass me again. This went on a few times, odd to say the least; however, my main concern was to get home in one piece. I noticed a long string of transports coming in both directions. I thought, great here we go. These roads can be narrow at times, so driving in a snowstorm past a bunch of transports and having a line of them behind you can cause a little bit of anxiety. I was going much slower than they would have me go as they were all tailing on me. The ambulance was still behind me at this point and when we reached a long stretch of road, the ambulance began to pass me, as did a couple of the other trucks … I thought phew.
The road home was treacherous and filled with transports trying to reach their destinations as I was. It wasn’t until today, I started thinking. God, where were you? Then I remembered the ambulance. It was headed no where, in fact at one point it just disappeared, no emergency lights, just headed in the same direction. What hit me was the strange behavior of this vehicle. It was constantly with me, either behind me or in front of me. I thought, wow how did I miss this! I’m so sorry God. I might sound crazy, but I believe that ambulance was there for me. Angels driving an ambulance perhaps? Not impossible… It was like God was telling me he was there the whole time. Just as the star guided the wise-men to Jesus, God will use whatever He has to, to ensure you know He is with you, and He will guide you to safety.
“For he will order his angels to protect you wherever you go.” Psalm 91:11 (NLT)
“I was with you in the past, I am with you now, and I have paved the road before you.”
“The LORD himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.” Deuteronomy 31:8
God said, you didn’t notice the sign, because you were too busy complaining to realize that I had answered your prayer. He was telling me that He was indeed with me, and that I would get home safely. If not, the ambulance was there for saftey. As annoying as it was, I did take some comfort in having it there.
God shows up in a number of ways, we just have to be open to see it. And, sometimes if you are like me, you reflect back and start to realize that God never left. He even used the brightest of lights to get my attention.
A nurse at my work mentioned that she was driving in Ottawa one day, as was scared as she has some real anxiety with high traffic. She prayed God, just let me know somehow that you are with me, I’m about to lose it. Just as she said this, a car passed by her intentionally and the license plate read – BE STILL.
“He says, “Be still, and know that I am God.” Psalm 46:10 (NIV)
“When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze.” Isaiah 43:2 (NIV)
A friend of mine and co-worker, lost her home to a house fire this morning, and this is the one phrase that came to mind. I believe that no matter what we go through God never leaves us. He promised us long ago that He would never leave us nor forsake us.
“Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you.” Deuteronomy 31:6 (NIV)